A Vismaya

Voice around me gains more power, but it's strange for others. Now, the silence making me think what I'm Where destiny is leading somewhere My target getting withered Smug upon myself taught me many Never thought the things could turn out like this I mount my efforts but it ends with restrained I choose various ways to show myself Never got the opportunity Always ended up with squabble Due to my highbrow, people give me acclimation. This makes me more terrified & chaos The steps are really harder to keep forward, but the battle must go on. This is my war field and I'm trying to be a warrior. 

Why am I treated as inhuman Whether am I efficient Or the things which are not doing the same as others Or am I unable to do that work Or am I unable to study I know I can't do but I'm trying myself towards forwarding direction so that I can move my coin efficiently I regret my past things But I believe in present things which can be cured forever I know I'm unstoppable but only when it reaches the threshold Till that time I'm silent & blurring the things I m sad I'm in pain where people judge me what I am I don't know anything I'm equal to nothing. I feel bad for myself. God, please help me out I beg you My weight is lost day by day Happiness would be the solution  I felt but I'm not happy with these things Mentally I'm unfit Please help me out.